I was totally miserable last night and this morning... but on the long long way to Bradford I put this song on... and you know what, it gave me a total turn around! I listened to the lyrics, and I remembered why I wanted to do what I am doing... so I post the lyrics here:

Movin' Out (anthony's Song)
Billy Joel

Anthony works in the grocery store
Savin' his pennies for someday
Mama Leone left a note on the door,
She said,
"Sonny, move out to the country."
Workin' too hard can give you
A heart attack
You oughta know by now
Who needs a house out in Hackensack?
Is that all you get with your money?

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what it's all about
If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.


Sergeant O'Leary is walkin' the beat
At night he becomes a bartender
He works at Mister Cacciatore's down
On Sullivan Street
Across from the medical center
He's tradin' in his Chevy for a Cadillac
You oughta know by now
And if he can't drive
With a broken back
At least he can polish the fenders

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what it's all about
If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.

You should never argue with a crazy mind
You oughta know by now
You can pay Uncle Sam with the overtime
Is that all you get for your money?

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what you're all about
Mama if that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.
I'm movin out.