Am feeling very self reflective at the moment... really missing easier times...
john was talking today about how he doesn't want to get old and lose his youth... which I completely understand, but you HAVE to get old, HAVE to look after yourself, take responsibility...
I am very happy, at the base of everything, very happy... but as i look into my future I just don't know why I'm here. I feel like I'm in some sort of limbo. I have about 5 jobs (which I enjoy by the way) and no stable income. I have not yet had to rely on savings to get me through a month since becoming self employed... but this year I think i will have to.
My main income job may not be there next year.
I am getting scared and stressed.
I am putting that down as why I can't sleep well... and haven't really since Xmas.
At least my eye stopped twitching! ;)

So, yeah, I'm a bit lost and sad at the moment...