The demons don'tcome out to play any where near as much as they used to. But this week has seen me return to 'surrey' stress levels. Ie:the reason I started this blog back in 2002. This week I had to write a 3000 word essay of sorts stating why I should receive a teaching award.
I failed.
I freaked out. And all my old paranoias and doubts and hatred of myselt flooded back. So overwhelming that I have pretty much been broken for most of the week. Only time will tell if I'm past it again yet, but the slightest thing is setting ne offi am now convinced my new rabbit hates me. Which makes me very sad.