Friday, December 28, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Just filmed this years Xmas video, enjoy:
If I don't get chance to write again before I go on Monday have a great Xmas and new years peeps.... see you yankie doodles on the other side of the pond
xx
Monday, December 17, 2007
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Today was another day when my back just decided to not play games at all!
I got up, was quite happy, although had niggles in my back(but then, when DON'T I?) went about my business. Sat on the computer, heard the door bell, handed over my camcorder to the man from DHL (put some pants on before I opened the door... it will become aparant why I mention this later...).
I went back to my computer to await Chris and Claire coming round to do some work together.
I put my arms over my head and stretched. And CRUNCH! CRACK! RIP!
Instant agony.
Exactly what I did a year and a half ago at the old flat when Chris had to take the day off to look after me cos I was in agony and couldn't move.
I hobbled into the living room and pretty much collapsed on the floor.
I got comfy, in a stupid position, and lay there for about half an hour... Chris called me and I told him what had happened, but figured I'd still be able to meet up and do some work...
I then began to try and get up.
And kept trying for 20 minutes, tears streaming down my face. My right arm wasn't really working at this point, and any movement was torture.
They arrived and I was still trying to get up.
They must have waited 10 minutes outside while I struggled up.
Answered the door and felt a fool.
Claire gave me some of the medication she's currently taking for her back (naughty but to be honest I'd have probably taken ANYTHING at that point!).
I only found out later it was cocodimol and some sort of ibuprofen. I realised it must have been something like that when i was sat at the computer in much less pain but feeling very very strange while trying to do some work.
Right now I'm in pain again.
I'm supposed to be going to London tomorrow to Visit the Welch and then headed to Milton Keynes the day after to do a School ... right now I don't know if that will be possible :(
Anyway... at least my arm's working again... bah
ps - it was lucky I'd put my pants on or Claire and Chris would have got a shock when they arrived...
Look what I suddenly remembered about today.... www.jillbrontravels.blogspot.com that is SO getting updated when i visit Jill in the new year :D
I go to the states in 2 weeks... I need to start getting organised... after this week I have a bit of time off, so, yay!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
BEFORE.... this was Tuesday at the Frog and Bucket... granted for about a week I've been loving how my hair looked... but Friday walking through town with it hitting my face and goingin my mouth constantly just did it for me....
AFTER -
it's layered, it's big, it's bushy, I can mess it up, I can dye it easier... mmm
short hair :)
It's the way forward people....
x
Friday, December 07, 2007
Well, I just cut my hair... it was driving me INSANE all day today.
I am quite pleased with it, firsly cos it only took me half an hour, secondly because it is EXACTLY how I wanted it to look, and thirdly because now I've stopped EATING IT! That ws the clincher... I'd had enough with it getting in my food and then into my mouth!
Annoying.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
I talked to Chris last night and basically it boils down to the fact that he can't be the friend I want him to be.
Which is fair enough really, we have a lot that's gone on between us.
I suppose I just didn't want to think that was the case. So I just need to get on with it.
I have a shit workshop to do tonight which I have been warned probably will be a nightmare... but 3 1/2 hours and it will be over and I'll be £70 richer... so that's good.
Going Xmas shopping with John tomorrow. His family are all getting me gifts so I have to open my mind to a partners family gift ideas... not really done that much before...
hmmm
and he has more siblings and children of siblings to think about...
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
I feel really stressed, sad and alone at the moment.
As much as I have loads of cool fun people around me in Manchester, I don't have any close friends.
The more time I spend with Chris and Ben the more I realise I'm surplus to that/those relationships. I've had to close myself off to a lot of what they do, mostly for self preservation. A lot of the things they say in jest really hurt. And the things they don't tell me at all hurt even more. Thing is, they both know me very well - extremely well. And I struggle with letting people get to know me... cos then they can use what they know to hurt me... and they are doing... I'm sure they don't realise they are, but they do... and it's exactly why I wont open up to people...
So it's probably best I just stay away from now on.
Which means - no friends. I've not really connected with anyone else around here. I mean, I get on great with loads of people, but there's no one I'd call up and see if they wanted to hang out for the night. Mind you, there rarely has been in my life anyway... at least, not in this country.
I struggle to ask people if they want to hang out with me cos I assume they would be doing it to be polite, rather than actually wanting to be around me.
I planned a get together next week - and two people were going to come! I actually put myself out there for once... and no one can make it... not that I'm suggesting that everyone got together and decided they wanted to make me feel a bit shit... but that's the outcome... and it will stop me from trying again for a good long while...
People forget I think that even though I come across as a bit of an attention seeker - it's through need, not want... things hurt me very easily and linger for a long time...
I just feel really shit today.
I want to cry.
The worst thing is - I find it hard to talk to anyone about any of this stuff.... so I write it here... and again, i'm not writing it for attention, although in all honesty, I suppose a little bit of me wants the people I'm talking about to read it - cos there's no way I can say any of this stuff....
but in general it's just to get it all out...
blah
reminds me of why I started this blog 4 years ago...
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
- A door closes, a door opens.
- Good will happen from this.
And you know what... he is so right!
It has taken til now for me to realise how true that is.
1) If the Theatre hadn't been d*&ks we wouldn't have found Chorley Football Club
2) If Chorley Football Club hadn't been d*&ks we wouldn't have moved to Manchester.
3) If Space Bar hadn't been expensive d*&ks we wouldn't have tried to find a new venue to do our workhops - and therefore wouldn't have found The Comedy Store
4) If Salford Arts Theatre hadn't been poo we wouldn't have striven to find a new venue
5) IF ALL OF THOSE DOORS HADN'T CLOSED... we would not be playing a regular show at the World Famous Comedy Store... beginning January 12th
Things are pretty good really.