BOO!

I keep thinking I've blogged... but I've not. So now I will.

Isn't it depressing when you send out an update about yourself to virtually everone in your mail box and NO ONE replies to it? :( Maybe I was too down beat, or just talked about CSz all the time.. but hey, that's me !
Today's Halloween, and what does that mean? ComedySportz Halloween Special! Yeah baby. See I did it again... but you know what? I dont care. I dont really have anything else of interest going on in my life so I'll talk about that. I'm proud of it and it's fun - so yay.
The only other piece of excitement is that I finally found myself in Shaun of the Dead - and it's funny too, at 1 hr and 10 minutes my little zombie head pops up in a whip to the right. FUnny ... i look like I just wander in by accident... I'd like to think the editor saw me pop into frame and go 'that's it - that's the one!' .... but he probably just picked the best whip.
Anyway... getting up and getting ready for tonight.
Speak later
BRON
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i have to go back for 3 fillings and two extractions... not impressed... :(

LIverpool turned into more of a workshop thing . which was cool...

BRON
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ps - Dubnlin was great - just realised I never mentioned that again pix: ComedySportz Dublin

Well... off to the dentists shortly - i can't stop shaking.
Still finding out that people are bitching about me in CSz. I've had it, seriously! I'm not an egotist by any means but I demand respect! I slog my guts out for NO MONEY to make this show happen, I spend a lot of my time planning and organising, publicising, emailing, running the website, etc etc... and all I get is shit!
The thing is - people must enjoy doing it or they would have left, surely? So when one person DOES leave, of his own accord, I'M the one who gets the shit! I mean, is it just me, or when someone quits, they've quit... right?
Gah...
I'm not going into all this anyway, cos I can't be arsed, and it should no longer be an issue. People just seem to feel the need to harp on... the bottom line of it is that it's NOT MY FAULT once again! That's what annoys me the most... if I were in the wrong then I'd accept it... grr
Anyway... going to pack the car, straight after dentists we have a remote in Liverpool... eek
BRON
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Well... tomorrow is going to be an interesting day.
At 9.30am we bury my Grandfather. Which is sad... duh. I used to love visiting my grandparents when I was younger, and would have continued to this day ( I still visit my mum's mother off and on) but when my Grandmother developed Alzhiemers it was too hard to see her. SO I lost contact with my Gran and Grandad. Last christmas (two years after my Gran passed away) I visited my grandad with my parents and spent an hour with him. He was still just as fun as ever... and that's why I'm kicking myself I didn't go and see him again before he died. He was going to be 90 in 4 weeks. He had so many fun stories that I'll never know. So ... yeah... that's rather somber.
At 2pm tomorrow I got to the airport to catch a flight to Dublin. I hate planes. Really HATE them. I've already pre-warned my guys that this is probably the most stressed they are ever going to see me and be prepared for me randomly crying (which usually occurs on take off).
At 5pm we get into Dublin and have to find the bus to take us into Dublin where Sandra w3ill meet us... somewhere... i dunno... i am a super organised person... so this is stressing me out... I'm scared we will be stranded in Dublin not knowing what to do :-/
at 9pm we play Dublin.
at 12am we avoid getting the shit kicked out of us for possible 'irish' jokes that would have been bandied about.

So tomorrow is going to be a total roller coaster.
THEN i have to bring Patrick and Mags (from the Ireland team) back and keep them entertained til the match on Sunday!... tiiiiiired

Steven mentioned taking them drinking or something... hmm...


Should be an interesting weekend... i have nothing if not an interesting life...

i woke up this morning to hear a rhythmic poudning... well more a tapping/smacking sound... i listened for a while and concluded that it must have been my cat licking herself in the room. But it didn't stop. So I listened some more and while I listened I held my breath and it stopped... my own heart beat was making my bed move so much that it was tapping against the wall! I was stressed and I didn't even know it! I did some slow breathing and got my heart rate down a bit. It's weird cos I'd dreamt about throwing pots (as in clay stuff).. which is one of the most relaxing things you can do... I dunno.. my brain is screwed.
Turns out I'm still on Job Seekers which is good, dont know for how long though... I have a job interview with Tescos tomorrow, which I'd set up cos I was convinced I was going to get thrown off... but now I want to carry on with New Deal and get on with my business (which has now turned into the business of ME - as in ME doing workshops on my own without other CSz peeople... only downside is that it works so much better with more than just me!)
GAH
BRON
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well.. today has been an odd day.

Last night my Grandad died. He was a lovely man and I'm really kicking myself hard that I didn't make more time for him. He had a long and interesting life, and the last few years, although he was ill off and on, was a whole new life for him. We have a house full (no seriously, FULL) of paintings to remember him by ;)
This week is just going to get odder, sadder and weird.
Friday is his funeral, straight after that I have to fly to Dublin with my team to compete in a ComedySportz Match.
I feel like everyone has lost heart with CSz at the moment... and that makes me do the same... which in turn makes me sad. I was worried this would happen when we were playing more regularily. Some of it may be my imagination, and I know people are busy.. but ahh well.. I need to get some new people up there asap.
Everything feels odd at the moment. I'm fighting off another slump at the moment, fighting hard as I only just crawled out of the last one.
So... yeah.. weird, sad, full of cotton wool...

Tom Hankin Edge, RIP xx

BRON
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My mum just found this online for me.... scary:

Description of Your First Name of: Brainne
Although the name Brainne creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it causes an emotional intensity that is hard to control. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the nervous system, worry, and mental tension.
Your name of Brainne has created a most expressive nature, idealistic and inspirational, driven with a strong inner urge to be of service in some way that would uplift humanity as a whole. However, there is a tendency to assume too heavy a burden of responsibility for others, which leads to worry and undue concern. People with problems are drawn to you as they recognize you as one who has understanding and gives not only sympathy and comfort but provides also some constructive advice or assistance. You have a generous quality to your nature, but you must guard carefully against giving more than you receive or you will find yourself doing without because you have helped someone else

I think it's pretty acurate...

just need to vent a tad...

What is it with blokes? No serisouly... I think I've just been lucky over the last 6 or 7 years and have found blokes who wants relationships.. you know, proper relationoships... where you talk and hug and stuff. So why recently am I only coming across guys who, as nice as they are, only seem to be after one thing, and then when they dont get it, they dont talk to you again? I'm not going to go into this too much, my mum reads this remember...but basically.. I can't do casual.. I'm trying really hard to be single and try this stuff out... but I can't.. my morals are too strict, damn my excellant upbringing! ;)
Maybe I just expect too much from people.. or want to expect it... I dunno.
Still figuring myself about at the moment.
Have been sat in waiting for my camera to be picked up all day.. apart from half an hour to drop off stuff at the papers in chorley for the next csz match (17th Oct, vs ireland).. so knowing my luck they came then... :(
Anyhoo.. back to waiting
BRON
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weeeeelllllllll

I HAVE been busy...

left for Harrogate on monday for a lovely Primary School, the kids in this place were angels! No really.. they were the sweetest kids, very talented and interested. So I went on from there to visit a mickimoo in Sunderland. IT was a pleasant drive, lovely scenery. Sunderland was a much nicer place than I expected it to be, and that wasn't just because of the pleasant company ;)
I had a nice time visiting. It was cool to just hang out and have a laugh with an old friend, I dont get to do that enough. And it was great that he knows me so well... when his flat mates decided to make some 'special cookies' the second night I was there he knew that was his cue to get me out of there... lol... again, those of you who know me know how anti-drugs I am... I dont like to go on about it, so I wont now, but my point is that it was just nice for someone I was hanging out with to know me so well... lol
may have secured some CSz gigs up in Sunderland as well, so it's all good.
Came back on weds... set off at 6am to go to a primary school in Bradford. Again, nice kids. I'm having so much fun with that job - I wish there were more work!
Which brings me to today...
I went to the job centre today to try and sort out my allowance... I am currently on JS as i dont work enough hours or earn enough money to live... although, as the company I work for owe me a shed load of dosh the JC have decided I dont need ANY money... so I'm currently looking for another part time job for a steady income...
ALSO today met with the Football club to go over future fixtures there... I was really nervous cos I knew we weren't making enough on the bar for them. I was going to offer them a certain amount for the use of the building... and that amount was the amount THEY suggested so it's all good :) We have dates and dates and dates... yay... happy about that.
PLUS got some slightly sly good news about my previous job... which i wont disclose, but it has cheered me up ...
Now... the only thing that can cheer me up more right now is maybe decent teeth! Going to try and call the dentist tomorrow...
hmm
BRON
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