Ugh,, i really want to do this work I REALLY DO! So why can't I? I think it's cos I have a lot of different things to get done... which I CAN get done, I have just enough time if I start now... I just have to start it! I suppose I'm getting nervous about it all, I'm still not 100% clued in on what the deal is with what I'm supposed to be doing, but I also get the feeling they dont mind too much as long as the kids are gonna be learning something. I've split my three weeks up into WEEK ONE- Character, WEEK TWO - Technical, and WEEK THREE - Performance... so I HAVE made a start, ish.
I've had such a busy week I spent most of yesterday sleeping... which, as I've said before, is not like me... or maybe nowadays it IS like me... but it means I'm turning into my mum! argh ;)
OK, I'm going to go and get some work done...
BRON
ps - had a weird dream last night that someone emailed me about how wonderful they thought the layout of my blog was... weird

I was totally miserable last night and this morning... but on the long long way to Bradford I put this song on... and you know what, it gave me a total turn around! I listened to the lyrics, and I remembered why I wanted to do what I am doing... so I post the lyrics here:

Movin' Out (anthony's Song)
Billy Joel

Anthony works in the grocery store
Savin' his pennies for someday
Mama Leone left a note on the door,
She said,
"Sonny, move out to the country."
Workin' too hard can give you
A heart attack
You oughta know by now
Who needs a house out in Hackensack?
Is that all you get with your money?

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what it's all about
If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.


Sergeant O'Leary is walkin' the beat
At night he becomes a bartender
He works at Mister Cacciatore's down
On Sullivan Street
Across from the medical center
He's tradin' in his Chevy for a Cadillac
You oughta know by now
And if he can't drive
With a broken back
At least he can polish the fenders

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what it's all about
If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.

You should never argue with a crazy mind
You oughta know by now
You can pay Uncle Sam with the overtime
Is that all you get for your money?

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what you're all about
Mama if that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.
I'm movin out.

Well.. a weird week of ups and downs last week (for more ups and downs check out www.jeevesandwoosterinlove.blogspot.com)....
Back in November I sent my CV to my old Uni, Salford, as I knew they were on the look out for project leaders. I had no idea they were also looking for part time tutors! I practically walked in and they said 'when can you start?' !!! (I'm allowed to boast, I'm excited!) This is the sort of work I've wanted for a long time. So I start with a three week project in sitcom characters, then move on to teach a weekly class of Acting for Camera, and possibly also Radio Production. I can't wait. Lots of prep to get through though. Work work work.
I am busy all day every day this week...
anyway... back to last week... Thursday was great, I was beaming... but then I kind of sat back and realised I had no one to really celebrate with. I suppose I dont feel like anyone around here's interested except Ste, thanks Ste. And so I sat back and waited for the slump that always comes after being happy. Welchie congratualted me and then got mad cos I told her this...but it's true - whenever I'm happy I'm then go on a real downer for possibly days... and this time was no different. Friday was miserable, for no real reason, saturday was OK but yesterday was a mix of so many emotions I feel sick from it.
THe show went great, not many people there, but oh so much fun... we even had some new people there! Only downside was that I think one of the new people was possibly my exes new gf... which, yeah fair enough shoudlnt' bother me at all, (it's been nearly 4 years) but it really knocked me sick! I still feel sick now... it's something I'd not had to deal with until now I suppose, I'd prepared myself for being without him forever, but I suppose I'd never looked at it that he would then go on and find someone and live happily ever after WITHOUT ME! I know how pathetic it all sounds... but I'm floored right now... gah. And I'm so busy! And I think I'm getting ill.... gah
so yeah... there's always a come down... I've got to learn how to even things out more...

BRON
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FROM JULIAN

1) Are my legs really that good?
They are pretty nice, I've told you that millions of times now, do you still need to keep hearing it?

2) What exactly did you see?
That cannot be disclosed on this blog - or indeed anywhere else.

3) Was the bit of facial business I did in The Demon Busdriver the best I've ever done?
HAHA! Still makes me laugh - it was the goatee made out of a fake tash that made me laugh the most - that and the dancing.

4) Should I be asking you some questions about you?
Yeah I was just thinking that myself... but then it wouldn't be you would it.

5) If we were the last two housemates left in Big Brother, who would win?
You would win. I would be too busy laughing my head off at you to be able to make myself look interesting.

You scored as Interpersonal. You enjoy being around people, like talking to people, have many friends, and engage in social activities. You learn best by relating, sharing, and participating in cooperative group environments. People like you include salespeople, consultants, community organizers, counselors, teachers or any other helping profession. Interpersonal 79% Musical/Rhythmic 75% Verbal/Linguistic 64% Bodily/Kinesthetic 50% Visual/Spatial 43% Intrapersonal 39% Logical/Mathematical 39% The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences created with QuizFarm.com

FROM MARTA

1) if frustration, money, and need to follow a pattern didn't matter
what would you knit?

Hmm... probably a biiiig poncho, or a funky tanktop (vest - I actually found one I knitted a few years ago which I'm rather proud of.. but have lost the pattern)

2) for whom would you knit it ? (see above ?)

Me of course! Hardly anyone else will wear my stuff.

3) what type of yarn ? (see above ?)

erm... wool?

4) color ? (see above ?)

Purple and blues all the way... maybe a little grey


5) would it be perfect or small boo- boo's ? (see above ?)

Small boo-boos? What like the bear who's friends with Yogi? Thing I knit usually aren't the right size.. for example the tanktop I knitted a few years ago is WAY too small

FROM RACH

1. If you could kill one person (with no consequences of law or guilt or hell), who would it be?

Haha - I know who you're thinking of... hmmm.. you know I dont know if I can answer that really.. it certainly couldn't be anyone I know... I'd have to go with something generic like Asama Bin Laden or someone who's caused a lot of pain to a lot of people.


2. If you had to throw away every item in your wardrobe today, what one item would you keep?

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That hurts!!! That really hurts!! Hmmm... probably my jean flares with the flurescent yellow sides in them... i can just get back into them again and they are my favourite pants... but I would hate you forever for making me get rid of everything!!!

3. If Ben Folds took you to his hotel and offered you one night of passionate lurve, would you take it?

HAHAH!!! I can't imagine I'd go all the way... but I'd certainly be very flattered... plus would have to ask why he's doing this when he is blatantly besotted with his wife.

4. Fame and fortune - blessing, or curse? Please explain your answer (ooh, it's like an exam)

Ha, now discuss.... Curse, definately. Any way you look at it, to be famous is a curse. Even for those that crave attention, there is the downside of it not always going to be there, and then ruining your life. Fortune however is different. If I had enough money to do what I wanted I'd be a very happy person, as doing what I want to is pretty much work anyway I think I would deserve it ;)

5. If you could be an animal, what would you be and why?

Simple and easy- a cat... cos they're simple and easy... nooo that's dogs... because they are independant and can sometimes be very silly :)

FROM JER

1. What's in store for CSzUK in the future?

A worrying question right now... if we weren't paying for the flights to the US I'd be a bit more confident on our stance... we will see... i have horrible thoughts that we may die after the summer which will be terrible... who knows

2. If you could design your perfect job what would it be?

Wow... pretty much what I'm doing now - only MUCH MORE WORK and MUCH MORE MONEY! And lots of holidays ;) I really enjoy going into schools the odd couple of days a week and doing workshops, and I love direecting, ideally I suppose running around the country directing shows in schools and colleges would probably be my ideal job... but that job doesn't exist over here...

3. Describe your perfect mate?

Hmmm... I was asked this recently by a friend... it's hard for me cos I've never really sat down and thought about it, ever. Her suggested was that the first part of what I should look for is: '1) Must live in the UK!' ... blah blah blah... ;)
I think some things that need to be key is firstly the same sense of humour, and a willingness to laugh insanely, also someoe who can give me space but also be there when I need them. Someone who can make me feel happy just being in the same room as them. And something I realised recently is I need to be with someone who I can create with... I didn't think that mattered cos I do so much creating stuff with others, but I think I need that special someone to be interested in making things with me, like plays, comedy, clay animals, anything....


4. Take a quality from each close friend and build a new friend.

Ste - Ability to say the right thing at the right time
Liz - sensibility
Ian - quick wit
Rach - The ability to be totally down to earth but utterly bonkers
Jenny - vivacious humour
Jer - Honesty
Evan - warmth

My new friend will be called Slirjje


5. Make up a question and then answer it.

Why did Jer ask me to make up a question? Cos she's lazy

FROM MY MOTHER

1] New Year's resolution?

I already wrote that on here... my resolution is this year to DO SOMETHING... just something... as a sideline - to make some friends!


2] How many different hair shades last year?

Wow... about 5 different dye jobs... this year will be different I think


3]Will you be brave and got when the dentist sends for you?

Yesss... I am going on the 2nd Feb for a full head xray blah blah

4]Marrying this year??

Where on EARTH did that question come from? Who can say...I am, as usual, fighting them off with sticks... suppose I've literally only come to the realisation that i COULD get married if I wanted to... after thinking I was going to be married to a certain person for the rest of my days, it's taken a long while to shake that - as ridiculous as that is

5]Roughly, how many shirts do you have?

Not counted but I would guess probably over 100

fun with honesty
1. Ask me any 5 questions you like in reply to this post and I will answer your questions honestly in a new post.

2. Post this to your journal so that myself and others can also ask you questions.

got this rather simple wonderful idea from Mark Mcconville from LA

I got an email from a little milwaukeean bird saying that she was worried that I'd not posted because I was depressed again....
that, my avid readers, is currently not the case.
I am just very busy all of a sudden! Jan and Feb seem to be Bron's Busy Months of 2005. I will need March to recoup!
Anyway... last weeks YT show went well, got a good crowd and the kids did really well. CSz the next night wasn't quite as good, the show was ok (if not a bit mental) but there was hardly anyone there... our smallest audience yet! BUT a couple of newbies there who we made a fuss of so hopefully they'll come back.
I'm still suffering from my teeth... my dentist however finally put in a temp filling to the one giving me all the trouble - and then, sods law, the next day the temp filling from the OTHER tooth fell out... all my gums are swollen and sore and my mouth is getting that way in general... great... there's only so many times I'm willing to go to the dentists! I have my hosp appointment - but it looks like that's just for an xray! Which confused me a bit.... anyway.
On Tuesday Key and myself took both our cats to the vets. Binx was an angel as usual, and kitty seemed slightly less stressed than usual. Anyway, we got through the jabs, and the flea searches, and the worming etc... then the vet listened to kitty's heart and said 'We'd have told you about his heart murmur wouldn't we'... to which I just replied 'No!'. He went on to tell me that I needed to bring kitty in to have lots of expensive tests... great... it HAD to be the cat I didnt' like! Anyway... bottom line I've decided not to take him. I can't afford it - it's that simple. If he deteriorates I'll take him, but he seems fine. I know it's harsh, but there it is.
I have a long day of phone calls today... i hate it! HATE IT! Am also going to chase up a possible preston venue lead for CSz
BRON
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today's weather is awful .. and is the reason I hardly slept! I got to bed about 2.30am after editing the stuff for today's Youth Theatre show (a show in three days! hard work but fun... hopefully we'll pull it off!) then failed to sleep as the wind was so loud, as was the rain.... I am shattered - and am going to be at the theatre for over 12 hours today now...
someone asked me last night 'do you have nothing better to do'... and I just thought, well, no I suppose I dont, and that's not necessarily a bad thing for once. This has been a very interesting experience... and I think the kids have got a lot of out of it... I've laready warned them I'm going to be in a bad mood today... I should really take my whistle too
anyway... better get on with it all...
wish us luck!
BRON
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new years resolution....


DO SOMETHING